its like i have to wait for a sudden wave that wont leave me back on the shore where i need to get away from. it needs to sweep me out to the new day and the new time. but it only comes once every few weeks..and then who knows how long it will last. i feel nothing. i feel something. today i felt nothing. i felt tears. i felt panic and doubts and dry hair. i felt itchy. i feel like im underwater. when am i goign to come back up? and when ai do...when am i going to drown again?